When I thought that this year would not be short of suprises and more of the rollercoaster ride called the motorsport life, I wasn't far wrong.

In the last 3 days, my perspective on many things has changed...
What may have caused this you may say?
Many things. But those of note are the two biggest discoveries of my year so far...

1. After weeks of compiling a scholarship application for the "Layne Beachley Aim for the stars Foundation", I have been rewarded with a KPMG scholarship to continue on in my motorsport aspirations
2. A dude from WA by the name of Bruce, has decided to step out of his comfort zone in the coming weeks to raise some money for a Cure for Diabetes! He is going to drive across Australia to reach the F1 GP in Melbourne. And what is so spesh about that you may ask??? Well, Bruce has decided to do it in a Fvee. A feat in itself, But this man is doing it all for charity!

The reasons that these things touched me so deeply is because of the way I was feeling last time I blogged. It seemed things were going from worse to worse. I had no money, no tyres(Bridgestones are now out and so I have to get all new tyres) and the world was falling to bits. You could say I had Henny Penny Syndrome("The sky is falling, the sky is falling..."). Whilist I tried to throw everything to God, seeing as he said he'd support me... I was still holding onto alot of the worry and guilt myself...

Then along came this man who said for his daughter, he would do anything. A selfless man willing to cop 4000km worth of bugs in the face, Dust in his undies and most likely a couple of drums of Avgas out his tailpipe... all in the name of love. This selfless man was willing to use what he had to make this world better for not only for his daughter, but the children and familys of people literally all over the world.

The selflessness and love of this man for his family, to use his ties to the motorsport community to make things better, has given me the strength to keep going. To realise that one of my motivations in going into the motorsport industry wasn't to be famous. In fact that was at the furthermost reaches of my mind. It was to be able to do something fun and in the end give something back. Not only in the form of entertainment for the masses of revheads(Of which I am proud to be one!), but also to find avenues within the motorsport community through which I could help. Motorsport ministry and RFC (Racers for Christ) is one of the first things that I wanted to join when I was getting serious about going racing. All because I wanted to be able to help people.

After this though, things did start to look up even more. With my being awarded a KPMG scholarship, it was a sign to let me know that it was time to keep going on and moving ahead. To not give up the fight. That this was meant to be. I am so happy that in the future I will be able to do more. And I plan on it...

But at the moment I am happy to be able to support people like Bruce who encourage me to keep going! And the Lasts and Lasts Motorsport team will be encouragging Bruce on. This is an issue that cuts pretty close seeing as I am Hypoglycemic and my Dad, who is the team owner is a diabetic himself. With it now becomming aparant that our diabetes in our family is hereditary with Nan also being Diagnosed with it, it is something we want to fight... To help other little Lasts and Lasts Members who may come along and even those who are with us now...

We put the word out to all in the motorsport community, and even those who aren't really into it(Though I don't know WHY you would be reading this if you weren't!)... PLEASE dig deep and help Bruce reach his goal of $50 000 to help find a cure for diabetes. With Juvenille Diabetes on the rise at an epedemic rate, it is something that could soon touch us all.

Please Help.

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Happy New Year, well more for the Happy year we intend to have from here on out rather than the New Year that we have begun with. So far we have had the largest Natural Disaster known to man(Apart from the great floods of Noah's Days! So take heart!), and some devestating losses since.

Even my one refuge for the New Year was overshadowed by devestating losses with the deaths of 2 riders on the anual Dakar Rally. I can tell you that I was most reluctant to do anything this year. For the most of it I just wanted to curl up in a ball and sleep my life away.

But I know that is no way to live. Life is all about loss but one thing that we have forgotten over the past weeks is that it is also about gain! And things are going to get MUCH MUCH better!
Or at least that is what I am praying for...

See, I don't know about anyone else but I believe that there is a God. And I don't believe that he is a distant God either. I believe that he is in control of stuff. I unlike some do not believe that he is the "Dark, dreaming, dumb thing that turns the cogs on this show..." I believe he is in line for a much bigger honor than that. I belive he is the creator of the universe. The pyro who lit the fuse on this whole big bang resultant! The man who is still intertwined and in complete control of his creation. I think that events such as that have occured in the past few weeks have been perfect examples to show how little in control of our lives that we actually are...

I for one have fought my entire life to be in complete control of it... and for my entire life it has been a battle that I have most bitterly lost. It seems that when I fight most to be in control of everything. When I am stressed to the max in trying to gain complete power and control over everything that everything falls apart and I seldom get what I set out to do.

But somehow, even though I would be a top nominee for the "Crapiest Christian" award, God seems to in somehow bestow on me that which I needed all along. Maybe not what I wanted to begin with but eventually what I needed. It says in the good book that "His grace surfices" and it is only in situations such as this that brings most of us to a realisation of how true this is.

I have to admit, when all this happened I was truely ready to throw it all in, noting how pathetic it was to chase such a dream when there was more to life... there was more to other people lives. I felt so utterly guilty that I needed sponsorship dollars and my own dollars to be poured into this project when some people had lost everything. I was striving to play in the sport of kings and some people were just struggling to live.

As it is I still do not know where I stand. As so much of life and people's lives have been washed away, so has the sure footing for a new year that I had only weeks ago. I am at a loss of what I am meant to do with my life. I feel selfish like never before and ashamed that these are my aspirations. I pray for strength to go on and seek solace in the fact that people in my line of work have been able to do so much with the money that they have earned in this buisness to help. Mr Ferrari Drivers champion himself gave 13 million dollars or something...

But as I go on, I realise whilist I must continue... I will never be the same. God's grace surfices, but he uses us so that it surfices for other people and that is what I want to do... So I will keep going.

May God bless the families of all those who have been injured or have lost their lives in the past weeks. Our prayers are with you, and whilist you feel you have nothing else, we pray that you will rest on the one thing that you do have. A loving God who is providing for you through the tireless efforts of your neighbours. Please believe that you are in the palm of his hands and he will never let you go...

"My child I love you and would never leave you. The times that you saw only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you..."

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Due to the Tsunamis in Southern Asia, Lasts and Lasts have decided to suspend sponsorship hunting till the 10th of January.

We Pray for the victims from everywhere and their families.
The members of Lasts and Lasts Motorsport are not strangers to the loss due to natural disasters and accidents. And therefore we sympathise with the massive disaster's victims and those who are left behind.

Godbless.



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